A Consoling Famous Death Poem

Death is Nothing At All

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away to the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
That, we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect.
Without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?

I am but waiting for you.
For an interval.
Somewhere. Very near.
Just around the corner.

All is well.

Death Poem by Henry Scott Holland ~ 1847-1918
Canon of St. Paul's Cathedral ~ London. UK

31 days.. 29th November 2009-29th December 2009

It has been 31 days since his passing away. I miss him. I miss his voice, his super sweet smile, his laughter, his warm hugs, his kisses on my cheeks.. oh I miss EVERYTHING about him. I miss him a lot!!!!!!

Sometimes I can't believe the fact that he's gone, forever. Sometimes I wished that this was just a dream. A nightmare perhaps. And when I woke up, I'd find everything was just like it used to be.
No more waking up to find my heart breaks by the thought of him. No more feeling like a part of my life is gone. Vanished. No more nightmares... No more shattered dreams. How I wished. But this is the reality that I have to face. The biggest test GOD has ever given us.

I was very careful not to let my feelings show. I smiled a lot, I laughed my heart out, I went out with my friends.. But the truth is, I am so torn up inside. I couldn't stop being sad. I couldn't stop wishing and wishing this is all just a dream. I cried everyday and every night whenever I get the chance of being alone. Oh God, help me get through this, please...

My friends told me to take it easy, that time will heal everything. That someday perhaps, I'd be able to stop wishing the impossibles. I know I should, but not for the time being. This is all so hard for me. So hard to digest. Because I've never thought this could happen to my own family. Oh how naive I am.

Now, all that's left are the sweet memories. As time goes by, the memories with him will always stay here with me forever. He, will always remain here in my heart, my mind and my soul. I love him always......

Abang, Ala rindu abang..... sangat2!!
Al-Fatihah...

♥♥ NEVER Forget You!

♥, I won't see your smile,
And I won't hear you laugh anymore
Every night I won't see you walk through that door..
'Cause time wasn't on your side
It isn't right..
You know that I love you
It's never too late to tell you
And I really need you to know

No, I'll never forget you..
And I'll never let you out of my heart..
You will always be here with me..
I'll hold on to the memories..

♥, Can you hear me?
Wherever you may be right now..
Are you near me?
I need you to be by my side..
But somewhere somehow I know you'll be with me,
Someday in another time..
But now that you're gone, I'll never ever leave you behind!!

God knows I need you to know
No, I'll never forget you..
And I'll never let you out of my heart..
You will always be here with me..
I'll hold on to the memories..
Always...

In Loving Memory : Jefrie Bastian Bin Mohd Dahlan @ Anam.
14 January 1977 - 29 November 2009.
A Loving Son / Brother / Nephew..
He will always be loved and missed..
I love you Abang... ♥♥♥♥
AL-FATIHAH..

I wrote this because I have lost someone. Someone so close and so dear to me. My eldest brother, Abg Jepp.

On a fateful Sunday evening, 29th November 2009 (12 Zulhijjah 1430), he returned to his creator at exactly 5.10pm. After a long suffering of pancreas cancer, he went and left us all who loves him so dearly behind. But we know that ALLAH loves him much more. I am so gratefully thankful that he went away peacefully.

He had been suffering from the illness for quite a long time, only we didn't know what exactly he was suffering from.. My parents had taken him to few doctors and even to the specialist but then we always got the same answer. That it was only gastric..

He was first admitted to the hospital on the 6th of July 2009, after the much pain that he cannot endure anymore. And the day after, we found out he was suffering from pancreas cancer, the final stage.. And that explains the constant pain he had been feeling after so many months. And after that life has never been the same for us. For him especially. We were all so devastated. That was and still is the biggest test God has given us..

I was always in denial.. I always said that he will get better. That someday, somehow my brother will get well and healthy. Just like he used to be. That a miracle will happen and he'll be cured in no time! Oh yes, I was sooo much in denial. But, I believe in God's will.. I do. That's why I know it's for my brother's best that he had to go.. I know Allah has something better in store for him there.. InsyaALLAH..

Him, as I remember, was a loving and wonderful person. He was unique and one of a kind. He was one of the ones I could count on. I always knew he was always there looking out for us. No, we didn't talk much, but I know he loves us so, because he had his own special way of showing it. I respected and adored him so much, I don't even know how to explain. I remembered there was one time I made an essay about him. The title was 'My Idol'. Up until now, he was and still is my idol.

Abang, I want you to know that I will try my best to take care of you like how you cared for us.. You're never too far away and nobody can take your place..
You will always remain here in my heart, my mind and my soul.. I love you so dearly, no words can describe it. I will always pray for your good health and well being because you mean a lot to me.. to us to be exact.. :)
We love you. We always will. :) And I know you love us too...
Rest in peace Abang.. You deserve only the best, InsyaALLAH..
AL-FATIHAH..